oh and ive been getting used to hearing the words "if i tell you something you cant tell anyone..." because three people said that to me yesterday and then proceded to tell me the same exact thing, and each time i had to pretend i didnt know about it already. and then they'd say "i need advice, what should i do?" as if i dont have problems of my own i might want to deal with.

and now my friend pete just signed on saying "i really need someone to talk to" because everyone uses me as thier fucking psychologist, and then he proceeds to tell me about his strange dreams and then i analyze them and he tells me im right, which i already knew, and then i have to help him through it. i really dont mind helping my friends but i had the fact that when theres something wrong with me that i might want to talk to someone about, they all deem it as unimportant and they have to deal with thier own problems first, nevermind that i always put aside everything im doing to help my friends.

i didnt mean for this entry to turn into a rant but it did.

and today i get to hang out and supervise rudy and lex when they hang out because will cant go, and i have to fill will in on everything they do and i hope jason doesnt go because then it'll be me and him paired up and i so dont want that. kill me.